Monday, May 25, 2009

Setbacks, letdowns, doldrums...


Is it just that summer's starting? Or that I'm a better envisioner/ponderer/starter than a finisher? A preference for process over product? The lingering effects of end-of-term burnout? Or what?

The charting software I got is not *quite* what I wanted, and the dress form I finally allowed myself to buy is back-ordered until the middle of next month. I've got four projects either on the needles or waiting to start, and am just not that into any of them anymore. Ditto for the conference presentations, peer-reviewing and writing of journal articles, and qualifying paper that I'm supposed to be wrapping up. There's no shortage of deadlines and to-do list items, in other words; just a total lack of enthusiasm for the "do" part. That feeling of reluctance to stand up when your leg's asleep? I have it for my brain.

It would feel really good to Get Something Done, but instead of finishing an already-started thing, whee! I'm starting something new. Vera's an open-fronted, ribbed cardigan with a leaf-and-vine panel and squared-off collar, in Rowan Calmer, which is incredibly stretchy and soft. I made the original about six years ago, when I was just getting back into knitting after a long hiatus, and it's been my go-to for the slouchy pajama topper on a chilly night. The original was worked in pieces and seamed, but the updated version is worked flat in one piece to the underarms, with sleeves set in seamlessly.

Start the clock--we'll see how long it takes to finish this. Or anything.

5 comments:

Steven said...

Don't be so hard on yourself! You Do more than just about anyone I know. Vera is growing nicely...

Laura Sue said...

If you've lost interest in the "do"--then focus on the "to". By that "crypticism" I mean, as long as you are moving in a direction, the doing part will come on its own. I had on my to-do list this weekend to make the chuppah for my son's wedding. I never entered the sewing room and when my DH asked me about it I said, "Rest assured that I'm 'working' on it every moment." The "do" part comes when it needs to.

TT820 said...

That's genuine wisdom, Laura Sue--and very timely and helpful. Thanks (and mazel tov)!

saskatoonstitcher said...

Vera is absolutely fantasic! You'll be glad you cast it on. As a long-time sufferer of startitis, I (at least my basket of WIPs can) attest to the need for something new. An invigorating infusion of creative spirit and the excitement of launching upon a new journey is always welcome. So continue to cast on until one thing sticks and tickles your fancy :)

Team CFS said...

A little trick I have been using the last couple of decades (life-long procrastinator) is to just do one little thing on a project, the next thing. You would be amazed at how many projects get finished by just the "next thing". People at work think I am sooo organized and self-motivated. It always makes me laugh.
Best of luck and I love your knitting.